TIRED!!!! EXHAUSTED!!!!

Another baby died today. As usual, shuffle in ICU again...TIRED..stressed!!! Many shed their tears today....lights flickering just before the baby give up...reaper came to us today....FUCK! Tired to crap alot today...one WHOLE FUCKING DAY!

Chinese Paladin 3

Review from Will =P

Overall a very nice fairytail. Great graphics and effects on the chinese kung fu and skills casting. Very romantic and touching love stories, not merely love between both sex, it's about family, friends, etc. A big applause to the music as well, came out on the right time at the right scene, enough to draw my tears out. A worth the time masterpiece. ^_^ At least i've spent 3 days to finish the 37 episodes, managed to rewind back to understand more...haha

Kung fu panda

Familiar with this character? Lol. The 5 years old kiddo in ICU i've mentioned earlier said to me, 'kung fu panda'. I asked him, will kor kor is the panda or you? he said 'YOU'!!! >.<

Retards driving!

Damn fucking retard lady driving in front of me today. She kept looking left and right as though there is something bothering her, driving speed at 10km/h. Dang. Jam some more. My temperature raised up slowly until one extend, i have used my 'horn'. I don't usually use that thing because i don't like the sound. I'm getting pissed with most of the drivers nowadays, i don't know how they got their license and as though they owned the road. Fucking retard!

Love you M**A..

This is the 5 year old boy with his toys and TV in ICU.

Nurses life

You must be thinking 'what la will, all ur blog post about ur work, ur pt only, no life ah?'. The answer is yes, nurses life really sucks big big time. Work, work, tired, sleep, wake up, go to work again then rest day OT. Time to enjoy ourselves is so limited. When we're free, our friends all busy working. When our friends are free, we're busy working. Sometimes, i can hardly see my family for few days even though we're staying under one roof. Sigh. I'm getting sick of this. We work so hard, poured our TLC to our beloved pt, holistic care, from ADLs, psychological, financial, safety, social welfare, till then end of life care. You tell me, apart from GOD, who will take good care of you when you're sick without complaining? All the nasty dirty work, we did it perfectly. I don't think your family members or the doctors would clean your ass for you. Malaysians are treating the nurses very badly, especially those filthy rich bastards, treating us like a maid. They don't understand the concept of nursing. We are not your servant, we don't take wages from you and we are definitely don't work under the doctors, we work collaboratively or hand in hand with the doctors. A hospital cannot survive without nurses, who would open a hospital with only doctors? never heard before.. What i'm trying to say here is, please, respect us, don't ever look down on nurses. We study 3 years not to become a maid, we are well equipped to save lives. Hi5 to all the nurses! You're doing an amazing job! Proud to be a nurse!

Babies

Babies or we called it as neonate in medical terms for newborn.

I'm working night shift for these few days, yesterday was my first night duty. There 'was' a neonate just came into our world for less than 48 hours, suffered from congenital illness. He fought hard enough until GOD taken him away at 0010H today. His mother is a high risk pregnancy mother (age factor), father is aging as well with an eldest son with the age of 27 years old. Whom shall we blame for this matter? I heard it was an unwanted pregnancy or we known as 'accident'. I am very disappointed with the parents for what they have done, couldn't they use protection if they know it is not suitable for them to have baby in their age now? common, you both already have 8 children, youngest 13 years old. Isn't this enough? grow up man! you've indirectly killed your own son now. How many innocent lives have to be sacrifice for the mistakes of the adults? I am really getting sick of all these. Is the world going nuts? Again, GOD! What is going on here? Is Armageddon near? Sigh...

Will kor kor will always love you T_T

What can you tell me from this picture? This picture reminds me of a kid in ICU now. He is a 5 years old kiddo, who suffered from malignant ependymoma. Tumor in the head. Went into surgery for few times, now the consultant has given up on the recurrent tumor. If he goes into the theater again, he might not making it out from there. Everyday, people who came to visit him, regardless of doctors, nurses, family members, will always asked him to smile. His parents sometimes get really frustrated and stressed up, accidentally scolded him if he does not breath well. Imagine how strong he is, to a 5 years old kid. Others in his age now is going to school, meeting new friends, running here and there, playing their favorite games, eating their favorite food. He is lying on the bed, breathing through the ventilator, feeding through nasal tubes, cannot run, can't even hug his parents and feel the warmness from his parents chest. Skin to skin touch is so limited. We're blaming him for watching TVs all the time, don't want to rest. Have we ever step on his shoe to think? He might be thinking that he would not live long, he may bid farewell to us anytime soon. He just want to catch up all the things he missed on the TV, trying to live a life where all other 5 years old kid been doing. He wanted to eat, to taste the food, but he can't even swallow, no coughing and gag reflex. He is scared that he might not wake up once he is asleep. He wanted to spent more time with his love ones. Who knows what future holds for him now? How long can he live? When will he go into complete comatose? We're harsh to him, forcing him to do this and that. Sometimes when he cries, my heart melted and i wanted to cry along. He is stronger than any one of us, in terms of mentality, physical, emotions. Sometimes i asked GOD, why have to be so cruel to a small kid like him? What have he done to deserve this? He is just 5 years old? His journey had just begun and YOU wanted to put an end to it? Why? I am telling lies to a 5 years old kid every time i see him. 'You are doing great, you will be okay, when you get recovered, will bring you to eat this and that, to visit here and there'. We all know he will leave one day. Why do nurses have to face all this? Everyday seeing people crying after their love ones has passed away, we're just standing at the side to see them. Wanted to give them a hug but we're worried what we might get too attached to them. Why have to be so cruel to us? Come back to the 5 years old kiddo, sometimes, the maid said he will call for me. He called me 'will kor kor', play with me. I wanted to play with him and make him smile but sometimes, i walked away...i am just too sad to see him like that....i will not drop a single drop of tears in front of him...i told myself...God, what is going on here?

I'm back ! ^_^

Hi everybody, thanks for visiting my blog. Hehe. These few days is really tiring for me. Left leg on the road of recovery, told myself i must be tough. The consequences to be obstinate, painful and soreness of my physical body. People sees me, the only thing came out from their mouth was 'Will, you gain weight again'?...Yes, i am indeed a round fat santa claus now. Wanna get back to the slim version of me but it is so hard. A lot of things i wanted to get it done right but it always turn out to be...sigh..hard to comprehend...It's complicated...wanna get some shots of patron to overcome all this, LFT gone hay wire, have to stop consuming alcohol for some time...Not complaining about my life sucks etc, just wanna get things right...who am i compared to others who suffered from tremendous downhill in their life? Guide me Lord...

Baoz from Klang

Got to know about this 'bao' shop from my aunt. Went to ppl's blog, found the address, called in to 'pre-book' the 'bao', follow my lil GPS. Phew..reached there...Bought 30 'baos' for my family..the one of my favorite is the curry 'bao'..yummy! recommended to go there

Address:
Klang Food Centre
10, Jln Batai Laut 5,
Tmn Intan, Klang,
Selangor, Malaysia
Phone: 603-3342 8122

No matter how, do not give up, move forward!

A very nice drama..meaningful..real life story bout love, families, friends..faith..loyalty...betrayal...forgive...I'm personally touched by this drama...thumbs up!! SUKOI NEH!

Kiss the Rain

KISS THE RAIN LYRICS YIRUMA 
RS 1
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

CHORUS
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain

LyricsBay | KISS THE RAIN LYRICS YIRUMA 

Really long time didn't update my blog already. Kind of miss the feelings of writing everything down. Lol. Time passed very fast, now i am already 26 years old. Kind of miss those days, i mean kiddo days. Live life without thinking of many things. Can time really turn backwards? Just for one time? Let me go back to those happy moments and dwell in it. When you grow older, your shoulder grow broader and heavier. I really wish to relax and stop in the time for a while. Tired..tired..

Kinda love this song tho...>.<