I have made the first step...

After so many years of struggling, arguing, denying, cursing, etc. Finally, I surrender myself unto HIM. Many ups and downs in my life, GOD has been helping me along the way although I did not pray unto him or asked for his help, he has never given up on me, I knew it deep down into my heart but I was scared to admit that HE is real. Maybe I don't deserve to be his child, I am a disgrace to christian being. I don't want to crap much about my past for I am a new being now, a life with more faith, a happy life with someone will never forsaken me, never failed me, a great listener, and all in all, a caring FATHER. No words could comprehend how I feel now. I am just happy, yes I am. I wanted to thank a person, for 3 years GOD sent him to guide me, help me along this Christian road, walk with me side by side. His name is Uncle Sam. Big hugs to him!! Tian, Eric, Rachel, Wern Loong, Amy, thanks guys, or should i say brothers and sisters in Christ. =) 

Shalom....

A brand new Will Ku 2011 model, production of JESUS CHRIST TM

Kwong sai food =)

Well, went to this kwong sai food restaurant in SS15 with Hwa and his family to have our dinner. The food there...hmm...1 word....scrumptious! Reasonable price. Thanks loads! Revisiting? A must! =)

Alpha outing

22/10/11

Got up early today, was excited about the alpha outing, first time being excited about a christian activity. Took off early to pick up my friend. Stop at a junction near my house, waiting to cross the hectic road. Outta sudden, a motorcycle flew in front of my car, a kiddo was trying to do some stupid stunt but was outta control. I saw the bike flew up high and smashed on the road. OMG and WTF!!! I am so damn lucky that the bike did not hit on me. Phew!! Reached SS17 safely, pick up my friend, turn on my GPS and another WTF!!! Can't locate this place named 'KUANG'. Called for help...in the end, gotta meet up in the ministry house, someone will guide me from there...huhu...Took off to Federal highway....again, another WTF!!!! Traffic jam...argh....hate this..>.< ||| Reached ministry house about 1300H. 

We drove from KL to Sg Buloh then to Kundang, then Kuang...Finally, reached MBS!!! What an isolated place...Quite but nice tho....Didn't take much photos there...

 The seminar hall

 The swimming pool

The indoor stadium where 'Rachel' got her head bum. >.<

Kinda enjoy the activities and facilities there. Thank you to all the organizers and friends. The most important thing, i have been touched. Perhaps, my perception towards Christianity might have changed, not deviating to the negative site, but to be more open to GOD. The barrier between the door of my heart and Christ had started to break off. All in all, i felt peace...real inner peace...

Weight....KGs...Pounds....in EXTRAAAAA

OVERWEIGHT!!!!!       OBESITY!!!!!!      HYPERTENSION!!!!!!!

This was me in college time.....+ / - 70kg

Then.............

 Current me....+ / - 105kg   >.<   WTF!  -_-|||

Weird right? People normally post a photo of their fattest moment and then the successful weight loss! I am the opposite, T_T Weight gain and gain and gain, from 70 to 105, 35kgs extra. Imagine have to carry this body to walk and run if i could run. >.< Always say wanna diet but ended up with weight gain instead of weight loss, blood pressure shot up, always sprain my ankle, shortness of breath, horrible snoring. ARGH!!!!!  Come on Will Ku, drop all the extra kg!!! come on!!!!

My feelings is still tethered to you...

The photo explains everything.......

The Road Not Taken...best describe my situation now...=(

Robert Frost (1874–1963).  Mountain Interval.  1920.

1. The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.	20

LOGOS HOPE visit in west port klang

 The ship LOGOS HOPE

 Don't play play...i've donated 10 bucks k? =P\

Bought some readings materials...The most important book, the ALPHA 'Question of life'....

A very sad day

03/10/2011 (Monday)

Today would be the saddest day of the month. Today, i am going to bid farewell to one of my favorite child in ICU. Early in the morning, i saw this beautiful scene along KESAS highway. Hey, life is beautiful. Usually we are too busy to notice things around us, today, this scene caught my attention. I slow down my car, enjoying the view. Actually, i am just delaying the time to reach to the  hospital. Denial stage perhaps. Once i've settled with the parking, i took a deep breath, walk to ICU. As i opened the door, i told myself to control my emotion and i did it well. Helping my colleague Mariyan in preparing the items for transportation, settling the bill etc, making myself as busy as possible. 1000H, times up, it's time to sent the lil one back to Singapore. One by one came to bid farewell to him, caress his head for one last time, one by one broke down, river of tears flowing in ICU. I hold my tears back, packed everything and transferred the child to the stretcher and into the ambulance. While we're in casualty waiting to load things into the ambulance, one of my brother came down to say goodbye to the child, he burst into tears, and again, one by one crying again, and again, i held my tears. For 3 months he has been with us, from a patient to a friend, and now, he is like our lil brother. Took us 3 hours plus to reach Singapore, settled him down in paeds ICU, there...the moment i do not want to face, to bid farewell. I held my tears, kissed on his cheek, caressed his head for one last time, and he said to me...goodbye kor kor will, i replied him 'goodbye' and ran out from the room. I did not cry. Headed back to sunmed about 10pm. Exhausted. Looking at the empty bed in ICU 6, i have already started to miss him. For past 3 months, we stepped into ICU, the first thing we would do is to say 'hi' to him, caress his head, kiss him on the cheek, play with him. Now, it's just part of our memories. Be strong there, chemotherapy is a very tough process, be tough there, no matter where u are, we're always there for you. Hope to see you again...MIKA baby.....T_T