long long time

hey guys, am back here...phew..finally..i've finished my sem 8 and currently having my clinical placement..will be going to the state of johore for my psychiatric posting next week for 2 weeks time..kinda excited and kinda sad..coz ma lil bro juz came back from sabah for his clinical placement but i gotta go far...gotta wait 2 weeks more to meet him..itz like been ages even though it's juz 3 months time...maybe we're juz too close to each other..haha..hmm...to be honest, i'm kinda nervous now for my LJM examination this december...dunno y?even though i can score great results in the college but it doesnt mean i can do well in LJM..i must do my best! sigh...juz tht i do not have the confident to do so...will be going for my cousin's wedding dinner in november and the other in december...kinda excited tho..haha....gotta keep fit to buy nice clothing..muahahaha..<-----mission impossible...sigh!!!!!!!argh....lazy to type la..gotta now..ciaoz..

my birthday pics

i'm back!

whoa, can't believe my damn fucking schedule for semester 8!all night class and hell lots of assignment and research thingy to do..especially the nursing research thing and management subject.killing me slowly and softly.i'm real bad in these two subjects. the reason why? coz i hate restrictions and rules..crap crap..can't sleep today coz i'll be having class on saturday from 7.30am till 4pm..WTF! damn college! suppose a day fro me to rest? just finish watching another TVB drama, 最美丽的第7天..so damn nice and touching..haha..these few days wasn't feeling well, having tremors more frequent and fatigue all the time..guess my blood pressure shoot up again..i seriously don't know what to do with this stupid body anymore..have to pretend so much in front of people just to get rid of their attention and try not to let them worry.everyday sleep less than 3 hours, how to survive?to a normal healthy person, that might be just a piece of cake.to me, it's a one way ticket to hell..so many things to do, so many notes to read to memorize. another 5 more months to LJM examination..i'm so dead man..everyone around me keep saying that i'm brilliant, i can do this and that..in my heart, i just want to yell out to them and tell them that 'i'm not GOD!, i'm not perfect'.i'm just trying to do the best i could. arrrrrrrr........i want to have some shut eye now..feeling heavy now..ciao..

hmm....23 years of glory? Lolz..

itz half past 12am now, i'm officially 23 years old...dang!old dy..haha...from morning till night was celebrating with frens and family..quite tired but damn enjoying and damn happy..dunno y..maybe becoz juz finish my exam i think..haha..receive alot of presents..really apreciate it but paiseh leh..let u guys waste money oni..i will bcome a good person, dun woli..hehe..ah...really exhausted dy..wanna 'oi oi' dy..goodnite all..take care..muahs..luv u guys

OSCE tomorrow!!!!

whoa, i can't believe time passed so fast. tomorrow will be my OSCE (Objective-Skilled-Clinical-Examination) for semester 7. Kind of nervous now even though the procedures i've done many times. These 2 weeks is killing me softly, reading books, notes, dictionaries, 'choo-choo train' in the midnight. Argh....i want a long long holiday! next month i'll be in my semester 8. 1 more semester to go till graduation day. hmm, should i say, LJM (Lembaga Jururawat Malaysia) examination! <--it is actually a very tough exam, all the answer given in the question are true, you gotta choose the most precise and rationale one. critical thinking again. Who says nursing is just a piece of cake? you come and try it yourself! Argh...these few days keep playing Dota, just feel like killing someone in the game to release tension. damn tense up! i just feel weird now and then, maybe i didn't do well in test 1 and 2 i guess. my last gpa was 4.00, i have to get at least 3.95 and above for this sem or my cgpa will drop again! **bark!!!!! lol...No need to worry coz underdog is here!!!!! crap..getting nuts now...well, gotta resume my studies, gonna 'choo-choo train' again! wish me luck!

tension tension tension!!!!

damn it! i just heard some of my mates said the lecturer actually gave tips for the exam to the students, as the order from the higher authority from the college in order to bring up those with low CGPA. bullshit to the max i said. we work so hard all these while and study till like hell but what do we deserve? they can graduate with us with the same results and compete for job with us. Losers i said! in order to maintain the so-called 'good image' of the college, they would rather do anything. i hope those with the 'good result' out of a sudden without a 'good' reason will score 'flying colours' in LJM! I sincerely curse u guys to fail the exam! this is cheating and u guys are playing with patients' lives you bastards, assholes or whatever. So sad to hear about this, if u have worked hard enough, i don't think u can't pass the exam. just that u guys are bunch of lazy bumps! Asshole! spoil my mood today! u think u can do better than us after u got the tips, well, think again. i won't let ur nose get higher anymore for u guys have been acting like shit lately with the fake result. but still, can't beat me! so fuck off losers! ahhhhhh..enough is enough, lazy to talk about them. Crap! gotta work harder and show them the result from diligent, honest, and strong determination. We now declare war to those 'fakers'. We will prove it in the exam later. I just don't like it, especially in our profession. We are dealing with life and death, it is not funny at all.i dunno how u guys manage to enroll urself in this medical line without tender, loving, care and the most important thing ----> responsibility! Whatever u did, God knows and u'll reap for what u have sown! This is what i always believe and that is why i don't take action against u guys and the lecturer. I don't deserve to judge u guys. Honestly, i have to thank u guys instead of hating. because of your naiveness, it shoot up my adrenaline to study even harder. i will change the education system in the future and i will make sure masterskill college of nursing and health does not produce 'quantity' anymore! i'm so ashame of myself for being part of the college, so ashame of myself to tell my friends and family i'm taking nursing in masterskill college of nursing & health. It is a damn humiliation to me, to my dignity! i just want to graduate from this hell place asap and will never come back. Never i said! too many vermins in the college, shadows all around.

Prayer and a moment of silent to the victims in china earthquake

Dear Lord,

I can't hold my tears as i was reading the news about the earthquake happened in china, many souls sacrifice, be it men, women, children. I know everything happened happens for a reason and Lord you have your own ways. Lord i pray that you would save those victims and bless all the victims of the disaster. Lord please guide those lost soul and bring them to your kingdom, let them rest in peace. To those still struggling for their lives, Lord i pray that you will grant them strength and faith and the will to survive. Bless the rescuers a healthy and strong body to do their job, bless their family as well. Lord for there is nothing impossible to you, pour down your holy spirit and touched their soul, do your miracle on them O Lord. Please help them O Lord. Please show your mercy to them O Lord.

My Jesus, my Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort, my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Shout to the Lord
All the Earth, let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work
Of Your hand
Forever I'll love You
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares
To the promise I have
In You

In Jesus wonderful name i ask and pray
Amen

*i urge all of you to pray with me, for the victims and the rescuers. u can choose to fast and pray or praying in a group. That's the least thing we can do to help them. thank you and may lord bless you. God bless.