Picture of a thousand words.

Nice song

Man, this song moves me!

A comfy words from someone I respect and love.. thank you so much...

Dear Will,

Heard that you are not well. Hope you get well soon, with rest and medications, and prayer.

I have not said anything to you for some time now. I decided not too, since you are an adult and "so-sure" of yourself. I didn't want to be seen too as someone stalking you and slapping your wrist every time you stepped out of line. But that doest mean I am not aware of what's going on, and that I don't care. I do, a lot, in fact. And I have seen your rantings and ravings, esp on fb.

I don't intend to give you a lecture now, especially when you are sick. All that I hope and pray is that you will take this "enforced rest" as time off to reflect. Be quiet. Maybe good even to take an enforced break from fb. Search yourself deep and ask yourself who you are, what you want to be, and where your friends (real ones), family and especially God figure in your life.

Some time ago, you made a commitment to God but I don't think you have kept it. Commitments should not be taken lightly. Take this time to reflect on who God is to you. He has never forced himself on you. You chose Him. And you still have a choice. It's your call, your life.

Take care then. Get well soon. May God's healing hands be upon you.

Love,
Uncle Sam.

Everything seems so wrong....

What is going on? I wish I have the answer.

Image tells all....FRUSTRATED!

Life is not as easy as it seems. I need a break!

Glad you came =)

My Valentine's Gift ^_^

Love you loads. Hugs.

CNY 2012

Year of the Water Dragon!

All about Food!!

 CNY eve reunion dinner

Lou Sang (Before)

Lou Sang (After)

1st Day of Spring (Egg Standing Day) >.< you can actually do it anyday, anytime of the year!

Now, today is last day of CNY, I hereby wish all of ya Happy CNY, wish you guys have a healthy body, unceasing prosperity and happy always!! Hugs~~

My first post in 2012!

Kinda miss my blog lately. Was busy with clinical attachments and assignments. Life as a nurse really sucks to the maximum of suckness. But hey, we 'the nurses' manage to get through it. We sacrifice xmas, new year, etc to take care of ur love ones while u're having dinner, fun, reunion with family, what about our family? When u yelled at us for small tiny matter due to the hectic situation in the ward, we apologize, we know you are concerned about your love ones, but hey, do u know we do have love ones who are sick at home or in other hospital but yet, we put yours in our priority. You guys manage to bid last farewell to your love ones before they pass away. What about us? We can only attend their funeral and pay our last respect there. Cmon people, why are you still looking down on nurses? Even doctors can go home to sleep, anything happened, we will settle for them or just ring them up, they give instructions, continue to sleep. Why are you always say thank you to the doctors but not to the nurses? Who spend most of the time with u, talk to u, bed sponge u, clean ur 'shit', make sure u eat while we suffer from gastritis, make sure u pass urine while we have overload bladder? This world is sick, really sick.... We are Humans, we do have feelings...Sigh

It's the end of the year again! Blessed Christmas and A Happy New Year!

'In a Blink of an eye', year 2011 coming to an end. As usual, many ups and downs throughout the year. Most important thing, I enjoyed the process and learnt alot and grow in it. Got a new life, a better half of me (wink~~), career advancement, more love, much exciting journey with faithful friends, etc. All praise to be God. Looking back at what happened to me past 26 years, it's like a flash of light, now I am a grown up with own career, more responsibilities, aw...How I wish to be a child again. Haha. Silly me. Anyway, don't want to crap much because it's Christmas day tomorrow. Got to wake up early in the morning to go to church yo! Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year to y'all. Have a blast and a great year ahead! Take care.

Xmas is just around the corner....

This year, 2011, I have decided to do something different on christmas day. As normal, we will celebrate this day with love ones, go to church, have christmas dinner etc. This year, I am going to join uncle sam and WH family to do some charity work and celebrate christmas with someone special.

When I watched Glee season 3, I came across with this song and it touches my heart deeply, wanna share with u guys out there.

 EnJoy! Blessed Christmas to all of ya!

Emo'ing' and got saved!

After posted the new entry 'patience', i got emo again. Was thinking about the issue. Having insomnia now. Was listening to all sorts of sad musics. As i type in youtube search engine to search for more emo songs, these two songs came to me. Without any hesitation, i clicked on the video and i got touched by the lyrics, as though God is speaking to me. Here, i want to share with you guys about these two vids.

David Hodges ft Amy Lee - Breathe 

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me
This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I, I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me
This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I, I'm desperate for you I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you I'm lost without you
And I, I'm desperate for you I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you I'm lost without you

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

And I, I'm desperate for you I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you I'm lost without you
And I, I'm desperate for you I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

David Hodges feat.Amy Lee - Fall Into You

Seems so far that I have gone down this road
Only to find that it ends
But looking back, there is one thing that I know
I can't make it all alone again

'Cause I'm too weak
To stand on my own
When all I need is you

So lead me, guide me
Hold me, hide me in love
With all that you are
And all that you do
Hear me, take me
Mould me, break me oh god
Just fill all of me
As I fall into you

Just catch me as I fall
When all this time I have felt so alone
Losing myself in my despair
With loving arms
You were waiting for me to let go
With every step you were there

'Cause I'm too weak
To stand on my own
When all I need is you

So lead me, guide me
Hold me, hide me in love
With all that you are
And all that you do
Hear me, take me
Mould me, break me oh god
Just fill all of me

Oh my child, how I have longed
For you to come home to where you belong
All of your life, if you could just see
All of my joy, when you are here with me

Oh my child, how I have longed
(Lead me, guide me)
For you to come home to where you belong
(Hold me, hide me in love)
All of your life, if you could just see
(With all that you are)
All of my joy, when you are here with me
(And all that you do)
Hear me, take me
Mould me, break me oh god
Just fill all of me
As I fall into you

Beh Tahan...haha

Do enjoy the video! Haha...I got stomachache after watching these videos, hard to breathe! Haha

Patience

It's been a month since i enrolled in post basic in critical care in Sime Darby College. My opinion so far? One word to describe it, 'SUCKS'. Most of the time no lecturer in the class, reasons? Having class with the diploma students, clashing of time tables etc. Compensatory mechanism? Assignments and self study most of the time. I do not know when was the last time i have a good sleep during week days. Most of us are sleepy in the class, from 8-5pm then have to rush home to do assignments. The words that came out the most from the lecturer's mouth were 'you all are post basic students, not diploma students, you should have know this and that, learnt this and that, that is your pre-requisite skills bla bla bla'. Have they forgotten there are some year 1 staff nurse in the midst of us? Reading from slides is another mistake, might as well i get the hand out and read it at home. Snug and cozy. These are all my complaints for the first 2 weeks, in my heart, i am really frustrated. Many friends told me to pray and surrender to God, and i did surrender all to God and pray but prayer isnt my specialty, but God did answer my prayer in a very creative way of His. I have to learn to be more patience. That is the only thing i need to build up my faith. I am too 'rushy' sometimes and even people around me cannot bear with me. I want to do things fast, be productive, efficient but i have never thought of the things i have missed during the process. That is enjoyment of doing the particular thing. Enjoy the process and be grateful to people that helped out. Same things goes to christianity, i am rushing myself to be more like Him. Everytime i stepped into the church, i felt isolated and low self esteem. They are so close to God, i dont even know what is going on in the church, follow them to sing, to praise, trying to understand every words from the sermont, the character, the event, etc. Frankly, i got very stressed up. That is why everytime after the service, i quickly and quietly ran off from the church, and i cried in the car. Again, the word patience came into my mind. But how? I am supposed to be happy to be in the house of the Lord, now, i am afraid. I am...

For you my darling...

Still loving you

To You,
          Sry, It took me sometime to read your blog. I have read your letter and most of your updates. I cried, I wanna hold you in my arms and to tell you that, I am still loving you. Neither of us have done wrong. If time could turn back to that day, I would say sry and hold you tight, would never let you go. You are not the only one pretending, I am too. I pretend not to go out on your bday as well, cx i know i would cry, and i will. I don't have the courage to face you for the time being as I am facing great spiritual dilemma as well. I dont know which path to walk now. I really dont know. Would you wait for me? Can we start all over again? Miss you loads, wk.

From the one still loving you but lost...

A little Faith at a time...to draw closer to GOD.

13/11/2011 (Sunday)

Alarm struck my head at 0900H, as usual, snoozedit and continue to sleep. I slept at 0400H earlier, felt so tired and helpless in waking up =P. Out of sudden, i felt my body was energized and refreshed, I stood up from my bed, feeling awkward of course. Hmm, nevermind. Headed to shower, and prepare to go to church. Got a Whatsapp message from Mr Eric Hiew, a gentle reminder for me to go to church =.=|||. As i drove to the highway, there were many cars even though in Sunday morning? I wonder why? Reached WH at 1020H, whoa, there were lotsa cars there, most are church-goers i guess. Tried to find a parking there, circling that place for quite some time, didn't manage to get one. My mind already given up, wanted to go home but my limbs arent with me tho. They drove me to a place where there's a parking space there, the disadvantage of this parking venue was, it is vey far from the church and in needed to walk uphill! Sigh... My legs are willing to do that for me and i walked to the church. As i stepped into WH gate, i was SOB, sweating and tachycardia. The moment i stepped into the hall, I felt relatively comfortable and peace. Then the service go on. Felt kinda weird at first, ouch, should i use fresh or new? I find that i am totally a noob or a newbie in christianity. There was a moment of silence during the sharing, what touched me the most was when uncle sam came out to share with us, the moment he shed his tears, i can feel inside myself there was a river of tears circulating my whole body, it came naturally, didnt even go through my brain for translation. Then, there is this song playing in my head, 'There is none like you'. I sung it quietly in my heart, shed a few tears but still pretending macho >.<. I am really glad that I am saved, am walking on the right track now. Uncle Sam brought me back to christ, God uses Uncle Sam to guide me, not only in christianity, about life, studies, etc. I am glad to get to know a bunch of good friends @ bro and sis in Christ. Do you know that they willing to give me a wake up call @ calls just to get me to the church? I am really touched by them. Hugs all =)

The Offical Music Video, Uninspired by Djezna's Stalker DjeznasStalker

 Local Malaysian band. Do support them, support good music!!! Nice work there! Bravo!

Oh NO!!!!!!

One word ---> Frustrated. Nothing left in my hard disk after the viral fever. After resuscitation, Moi PC left nothing behind T_T.....haihz -_-|||

 Argh~~~~~~~ Woof ...Wooof............................@!#%@$%!#^!&%&