can't sleep

sigh, trying to push myself for a shut eye but my restless soul just wouldn't get some rest. Mind is filled with tons of responsibilities and notes. Exam coming soon, next week. suppose to be satisfied if i have worked hard and did my best but i just couldn't hold back my 'perfectionist' character. Friends around always advise me not to demand and aim too high, i guess i couldn't help myself. i just like to aim high but when i fall, i don't feel 'too sad' either. Is it really hard to score 4 flat every semester? hmm, i guess so. damn it! i do feel tired these few days, was guiding juniors in their studies as well as doing my own revision. as time passed, i'm getting more frantic and worried. going to graduate this december and will be working as a nurse. thinking about sunway medical centre really freak me to my bones. wanna ask me the reason why? i couldn't tell ya because i myself don't know why.ah crap! can someone upgrade my memory capacity so that i could stuff more knowledge inside? just feel that my brain now is not enough for me even though people around keep calling me 'the walking and talking dictionary'. having good results in this college is not a good thing, it is a disaster. people tend to be jealous and try to bring you down. i really don't know why, whatever incident or shit related to me, if it happens today, the whole college will know about it immediately. i'm so sick of it, i wish i could have some privacy and some rest periods. please spare me fellow human, show me your humanitarian side rather than being cruel to me. damn fucked up life! wish could end this fucking college study asap. duh! SO FREAKING TIRED AND BORED WITH MY NOTES!!!!!! HELL!!!phew, feel better now..just like to crap and fool around, i will ganbateh!!!! wish me luck! adios amigo!